Mom's gift

This week, I've thought a lot about what I might want to write on this blog. I even wrote a post that went unpublished. I began the week in a kind of overwhelm where I thought - I'm never going to get through this work - it will never ever end. Today, I feel like I can see an end to the work. I know I have a long way to go before the end arrives but at least I finally have a vision of the end.
What is this work I'm speaking of......it's getting through all the material things of my dear mother's life. There is a lot I could say about it all and a part of me feels like it really isn't proper to share all this out there with strangers. So I hold back and consequently......my blog remains silent.

I know some things. I know my mom did the best she could. I know she had certain physical hindrances - like poor eyesight and sore hands. I know that her young experience with The Great Depression formed her life view. I know that she was a creative charming person who maybe wasn't always able to shine because of the setbacks she was given in life. I know that I am very grateful for all my mother so generously gave me.

That doesn't change that she left us a chaotic mess to sort out and give to charity. Just when it seems depressing and hard as hard can be .......a little shift here happens and a little relocation there happens. Before I even catch up emotionally with the changes I suddenly realize I'm in a new level with it all.

Today we connected with someone who is going to help us get a lot of this stuff to people who are in need of this stuff. And some of it is going to make some seniors so happy. Lost forgotten old people who have been abandoned by their families if they even have family. I know my mother would be glad to know that her things - the excess of things her children couldn't take will go to bring joy others. I know I feel such relief and happiness about it that it just brings on the tears.

I miss you Mom.

I want to thank Lisa this week for this post. I feel so similar and reading her words helped me and rather than rewrite it all in my own words I will link to her post and say ditto.