Of course we are always changing. How we feel is always in flux. What I'm referring to is a fundamental change and not just the slow changes occurring all the time. There are beliefs and habits I've carried around and used for years that no longer work. I've held on to things in my past and I no longer want to keep accumulating them.
Clearing through my parent's past - their memories and stuff has had a huge impact on creating this fundamental change inside me. The job was overwhelming and mostly it is finished yet not quite. What is left to do is motivating my own willingness to deal with my own life of memories and stuff and interests. What I've learned from this task so far is that so much is not important - what remains after someone is gone is the love - the memories of the essential energy of that person. All the stuff - even the stuff that is connected to the memories is only stuff and not really all that important.
I want to live in the present moment. That is the life I want.I'm old enough now to have accumulated a lot of hobbies and I see how it is all too much. The most important things to me are not getting done because I have been holding too tightly to the past in the form of someday projects. I chose to be in the position of being a sifter and sorter of my parent's stuff. And it has in all honesty been a burden AND (I hope my Mom can somehow get this too) it's been a wonderful teaching for me. My important things aren't getting done because I let my cluttered time management - or lazy time management - keep me from taking action on the things important to me. I see how I can accumulate better choices and little by little they add up to creating the life I want instead of being buried and stuck in the clutter of a lifetime.
So this is where I'm at currently:
Decluttering is my biggest passion right now.
Here is a partial list of things to be purged and organized:
- stuff,
- mementos and memorabilia of the past(see note below),
- habits that are no longer useful,
- outdated beliefs,
- clothes,
- email,
- digital photos (not sorted well enough to find them when I want them)
- digital files,
- paperfiles,
- projects I want to "someday do" and clearly will never do,
- books,
- CD's - cassette tapes(yikes!),
*mementos, memorabilia of past - I'm not talking about getting rid of everything from the past but giving the stuff I keep an honorable display and letting go of the rest.
I want to live in the present moment. I want to use my time here on earth - I want to use my precious sweet life wisely. So the other place I find myself is getting into integrity. Making my environment in sync with who I am and using my time to support who I am. Granted I know that this accumulation didn't happen overnight and it won't change overnight but this is where I'm at - little by little beginning to make different choices.
These are the priorities:
Decluttering, time management, and doing what is most important to me right now. What has fundamentally changed inside of me is this: I no longer need to keep this "stuff" as an excuse to living a powerful creative life in the present moment. I used to think I could get to clearing the clutter someday - but meanwhile I keep adding more and more to it.
I'm back... but prepare yourselves....because my blog content may become a lot about adding by subtracting........
Topics coming soon on my blog:
- I've been tagged to give you random and weird things about me
- the importance of declaring oneself a writer
- My currently favorite books
- sprinkled with decluttering inspiration
- photos of course
- updates on time management
- and the posts about the important stuff to me which is writing and creativity!
