The week has opened my eyes to my purpose. I feel a connection to this authentic place and a willingness to just show up. The details of where I am going are not as important as the importance of listening to one's heart say - go there that's a juicy spot and having the courage to stick with the juicy spots. Also trusting Divine Spirit.....I had a chance to watch a flicker bird. A flicker is a kind of woodpecker. I actually had the opportunity all in the same day to watch 4 different flicker birds on the ground feeding on ants. Now these birds knew I was standing there, but they had found a juicy spot and they were not leaving it until they absolutely had to because I either moved in like a predator or they had been fully nourished. They taught me a lot about staying with the good stuff. Just because you have these vague things in the background (like fear of the blank page) doesn't mean you have to bolt away. Find the nourishment and AND allow yourself to receive the nourishment.
So, I returned home and gave myself the weekend to transition. I had such a lovely reunion with my husband. I avoided rush rush or cleaning too much or calling everyone I know. I didn't come here to post for a few days just to give myself time to settle in to the being home again after being on retreat. On Saturday night we had these double rainbows appear to the East of our home. The one rainbow was the brightest rainbow I've ever seen as an adult. As a kid I remember some bright rainbows and I wonder if it's because as a kid your eyes are fresh. This rainbow we could see had a full arc - end to end. A double rainbow end to end. I feel blessed to have gone on this retreat and these photos - though taken at home sum up the Writer's spa experience. They express the joy and gratitude I feel not just toward Jennifer and Suzanne and the other women but toward myself too.
I learned:
Tears are okay
they freshen my seeing.
My heart is willing.
Divine Spirit lead the way.
This morning I practically ran into my studio and worked in the clay so as the days unfold I will be sharing more about that.......until then.......ask yourself what is next?
What is next? ......let your heart give you an answer.
See if it is possible to follow that impulse....and if all you feel you have the time for is a split second to follow that impulse.........then allow yourself.....give yourself permission to be nourished by that split second.
