As you may know if you've been reading here lately - my mom is sick. It has changed everything. Little by little we all are navigating our way with this transition. I really have no intention of blogging about this because I feel it isn't fair to my mom or my siblings to put this all out there in detail. This is my thing to do not theirs. Then, why do I even bring it up at all? I bring it up because it has already begun to change how much time I can spend on this wonderful creative process.
I am not much in a place right now where I can reach out and touch base with all the blogs I was reading before. I find my mind isn't focused in the same way as it was a few short months ago. I need other things to soothe myself. I want to be more internal. I want to read books not read at a computer screen. I need more nature and less technology. Drawing bad ugly cartoons with oil pastels that I share only with myself has more potency to me right now than making my whimsical creations and sharing them with others. It is all just where I find myself these days.
However, this creative process of blogging continues to pull at me. I feel I need it to be able to focus my mind on other things - really good things. I still intend to keep blogging. I just have to find a new way with it. Whatever routine I had before with it has now changed. I really want my blog to be a place of refuge. Somewhere I can come and share a little bright spot. I also know that my frequency of posts or visits to other blogs may be a lot less. Grief and change is something that all of us have so little control over. It's like a current of water that sometimes is more like a flood or sometimes it is a still quiet pond and all one can do is navigate as best as one can and perhaps pray to a Higher Power.
So for now I will leave you with a little bright spot photo. Tango's nose. He was one of our recent house guests - though not very welcomed by my cats! I know he would wish you a good day and happy nosing around.
